THE SCAR
By Yvonne Gomez-Carrion

This is unlike the scar that resulted from the overhead light that crashed onto
my midshin when I was 8.

Or the resultant scars the bilaterally ruptured Achilles tendons caused on the back of both of my legs.

This scar is personal.
It marks a magnificent place on my body.
The organ that fed my precious babes.

It looks perfect in my eyes, who cares what anyone else thinks.
My magnificent gland brought and brings me much pleasure.
I loved and love to touch her.
That is how I discovered,
That there was a part unrecognized,
There was the unwanted, uninvited mass.

That led to the evaluation, discussion.
The operation, the scar...
The chemo...
The radiation.

There would be NO real guidance without that first step.
A small segment,
The lump,
A smaller sampling,
The nodes,
The lack of normal  architecture will guide.
How much of me is organized or occupied by poorly differentiated rogues?
No one knows with certainty.
There are algorithms.
There are calculated models.

What is the cell type???
Will they follow rules or not???
Silly!!!
Cancer, by definition, has no rules.

How much and what kind of treatment to do?
The recommendations, the accepted risks, the balance?

You or me???

Quantity or quality???

Have statistics!
Do they apply to you...to me?
One size does not fit all.

Am I the less than 10 % ??

Crush... kill.... destroy!!!

You or me...

Will you be, when my chosen the journey is complete???

How will I be???

I will be me...
A better me...
A more appreciative and thankful me!

Cancer, you did mess with the wrong sister!!!


Written by
Dr. Yvonne Gomez-Carrion, OB-GYN

Dr. Yvonne Gomez-Carrion is a gynecologist who has been in clinical practice, affiliated with Beth Israel Deaconess since 1987, after a residency at Columbia Presbyterian in New York City. She is Assistant Professor in Obstetrics & Gynecology at Harvard Medical School. She believes passionately in a holistic approach to health care. 

She is problem-oriented gynecologist who honors the long term, genuine relationship with her patients. As a surgeon, she performs complex open procedures as well as minimally invasive surgeries, including advanced laparoscopic and hysteroscopic techniques. She has devoted her professional life to educating patients about their bodies' functioning and resilience.